I’m waning when it comes to keeping up with certain schedules but, hey, no one’s perfect, right? The ghost hunt is still going to happen, even if I have to do it majorly sleep deprived and full of caffeine!
Current emotional state: depressed and kicking. But what else is new, right?
For those who don’t know, earlier this year I decided that I wanted to go back to school. So I did it. It took a lot of hard work, patience, worry, anxiety, etc to get here, but I’ve been in college just a little over five weeks and it’s so much better than I thought it would be. Granted, there’s a lot about the schedule that doesn’t work certain days, but I’m getting over that. Losing a little sleep isn’t something that will keep me down or kill me. I’ve got this.
A couple days ago I thought I saw someone from my past. While I won’t give names, this person seriously screwed me over. I can’t even begin to explain the stress and worry it sent me through. But seeing their face again, or seeing someone who looked like them rather, didn’t affect me like I thought it would. Sure, at first, it seemed like I was going to burst out in anger, but once I took a look inside myself and realized that person was out of my life for good, I felt a sense of relief. It felt good to have them far away and that means something to me. It shows that they don’t belong in my life. They certainly had a purpose for being there at one point, but that reason is done and I’ve moved on.
I’m just trying to say that it’s hard to let go of people in your life. Then, one day, you realize you’re so much better off. All the shit they put you through isn’t even worth it anymore. It was all a learning experience and when you’ve noticed how far you’ve come without them holding you back, you’re happy. To that person who was holding me back, I hope you have a wonderful life, I really do. But I’m glad we’re not friends anymore. It shows how different we actually were and now I’m happy. 🙂
Blessed Be )0(