Emotional level: 7
Mental level: 7
TODAY I LEARNED: “Do geese see god?” <<< that can be read forwards and backwards.
I’ve been thinking a lot about my characters from my book. Story book characters live their lives so much different from ours. Every time you read a book about a far away place or another moment in time, it almost seems magical. Especially when the story you’re reading is fiction.
But there is just something about fiction that really pushes us to be better. Not only that, fiction improves our lives. It makes us human. Isn’t that what life is really all about? Being human?
I can only speak for myself, but all the stories I have read and watched over the years have only made my life better. I think that people truly underestimate the power of a story. They let the importance of story telling fall away like a dream when you first wake up, only remembering the parts that are barely there.
I didn’t travel anywhere today or yesterday, at least, nowhere adventurous. I did, however, sit in one of our patio chairs outside. I laid my head back and closed my eyes. I tried to unwind from the evening’s events.
After a few moments of deep breathing and clear thinking, I opened my eyes to see a small green plant of some sort sprouting from the concrete. It was green and looked healthy, even though it had to force its way up through the concrete and embrace these cold days we’ve been having lately. It persisted and kept going. It was a reminder from the universe.
I needed to be reminded of that and also remember not to be too hard on myself because that’s something I really struggle with sometimes. I think, in a way, we all struggle with that. When you’re hard on yourself, you really don’t get breaks, even when you’re taking them.
Your mind continues to race until you’re left with exhaustion and doubt. That seemed to be the trouble I was running into quite recently. It’s interesting how many issues we get ourselves into with our own thinking. But we get back out. That’s what counts.
I was also reminded that it’s okay to trust people. Another thing I have an issue with is trust. It’s extremely hard for me to trust another person. So if I do trust you, it’s 100% real, I can guarantee it.
Trust isn’t something you can mend easily. It takes years to build and seconds to destroy, so it’s a delicate flower.
I have to get used to trusting people. It’s not easy after you’ve been stepped on, stabbed in the back, taken advantage of, and had people undervalue you. But you must push past that. You keep going, and that’s what I’m doing.
If you’re struggling with something similar, I hope you’re able to find the strength to make it just one more day. Sometimes that’s all we can do is take it one day at a time. But don’t give up. For your sake and others…always give it one more try.