Oddly Me

I’m not gonna lie, it’s been hard. This past month I’ve gone through a lot of different emotions. I’ve considered a change of heart, I pushed past a lot of feelings that I should have paid more attention to. Most of all, I’m still going through my depression. I know it’s something I’ll continue to experience in life and that’s okay. None of us are perfect. I’m certainly not blaming this long delay of writing on my depression…but sometimes it does get in the way. That’s why we should keep trying. I was ready to let it all completely take over my writing. Thoughts of quitting writing completely constantly bombarded my mind. When you don’t feel like you’re good enough, it starts to affect you. It’s hard to imagine that simple negative thoughts can truly tear you down. Nonetheless, that’s something I’ve struggled with and it’s something we all go through.

They say you can’t fight what you can’t see, but I don’t believe that. I think we all fight every day in our own way. We constantly go up and down on this roller coaster of life and survive, even if it’s one day at a time. We do what we can to get to where we need to be. It’s a beautiful thing being human. We are capable of so much even with our flaws. There’s so much to learn from and I’m certainly not done learning. I will keep moving forward. I will learn and grow. I’m more than my depression. I’m more than the negative thoughts that try to bombard my mind when I’m at my lowest. Also, I’m not alone.

If you look around, you may find someone who can help. People may not be able to fully understand, but that doesn’t mean they won’t care. My friends and family are everything to me. Without them I’m not sure where I would be. It’s a long and rough road, but we’ve got to make the most of it. I know I am. Things will be different. Things will better. 🙂

Blessed Be )0(