Emotional level: 6

Mental level: 6

TODAY I LEARNED: Author J. K. Rowling wrote the final chapter of the last Harry Potter book in 1990, 7 years before the release of the first book.

I want to be completely honest about how I feel. I have no desire to create an illusion that says, “I’m completely fine, all the time.”

That’s not who I am.

That’s not who anyone is, really.

I feel as though most people want to hide behind illusions they’ve set for themselves. Certainly not intentionally, but to have comfort over fear seems to be a preferred method.

The masks that we learn to wear early in life sometimes feel like our real selves. We push and pull, slowly letting society and others mold for us the perfect shape of a face. Then, we use it to deceive people, not with ill intent, but to hide or make ourselves feel better. It’s become a human thing to do. The comfort of fear…if that makes sense.

Along the process, we start to worry about what others think of us. There is a spark of awareness that kindles inside. A need to be seen, even if you don’t feel that you long for attention.

That spark starts a fire that most of us find our way in. It’s a tough battle, but through the flames of change and growth, we find ourselves amidst the chaos. We learn who we are by delving further within, behind the mask.

I feel that it takes a deep kind of courage to look around the corner of that same mask and find yourself. The fear is still there, but pursuing your inner being, regardless of fear is essential.

Because fear will exist inside, whether we decide to change or not. It’s not about getting rid of the fear, but more about learning to move forward despite it.

Fear, worry, doubt, pain, and so many other harmful energies have a strong influence on who we are…and it shouldn’t be that way.

We should push forward with that energy, give it time to change. It’s the only way to make sure that we turn into something that reflects what’s on the inside.

Lately, due to the craziness that is COVID-19, we have traded our outer “masks” for real ones.

Because of this, our true selves have been slowly inching to the surface, and that’s hard for a lot of people. Specifically, those who have suppressed their true self for a great amount of time.

I don’t know what future lies ahead for us. I do know that whatever happens next, we will have transformed. Some for the better and others…not so much.

Normal was shoved out the window, along with our every day routines.

Really, truly, all I want to say is…let that inner part of you take over. Let it shine as bright as you can. This is who you are and somehow, we’ve been given the time to deeply self reflect…all be it, time that comes from a very horrible pandemic.

Whether you are stuck at home or stuck on the front lines, the energy of “self diving” is there, burning underneath the mask.

Maybe we’re closer than we think to our true selves. Right around the corner, there, just in the distance, something could be calling out to us. All we have to do, is listen.

Blessed Be )O(