Oddly Me

Emotional level: 7

Mental level: 8

TODAY I LEARNED: You replace every particle in your body every seven years. You are literally not the same person you were 7 years ago.

Recently I’ve re-evaluated what it means to be a clinically depressed person. Each day is different because you never know what sad or depressing thing your mind is going to come up with to torture you throughout the day…and night. Lately, I’ve been looking over a few things that have made me look at depression in an entirely new light and since it helped me to see it this way, then surely it can help someone else.

If you’ve ever experienced depression, you know just how debilitating it can be. It eats away at the best parts of your character, pulls away your happy emotions, and drags you down to a point of literal despair. I’m not talking about temporary depression. I’m referring to those who are clinically depressed; the ones who go through each day feeling so low and sometimes nothing at all. It’s a depression you have your entire life and you have to learn to live with it.

Unfortunately, not everyone understands this and we’re never going to reach a point where every single person comprehends it because it’s something you must to live in order to fully grasp just how terrible it really is. It is a VERY harsh world to live in if you suffer from any type of mental disorder.

To make matters worse, you beat yourself down, even over the small stuff. For example, missing a date, or a friend’s birthday party seems like something any normal person could get over in no time. But for someone who suffers from clinical depression, it’s a lot more complicated.

Thanks to a new set of mental health readings, I’ve been looking at things a bit differently. Since I suffer from clinical depression, I decided to see what all the fuss was about. Basically, those who suffer often don’t realize just how hard their being on themselves. Realizing that your brain works different than those who don’t have depression can do wonders. It’s all about gathering information. It’s that realization that really changes things. And yes, sometimes you have to remind yourself of it often, but that doesn’t make it any less important and it doesn’t mean that you’re doing it wrong. Finally, the main topic: thought replacement.

Thought replacement is a huge deal. We often don’t realize that we can replace our terrible thoughts with better thoughts. It sounds like a very simple concept, but it’s harder than you think…especially for those with depression. Sometimes we forget and end up in a spiral of bullshit that we feel we can never escape. However, daily reminders seem to be a big thing for me.

Whether you have to put it on a post-it note or tape it to your forehead, it’s worth doing. The results speak for themselves. Also, remember that this can’t be done in a day. Thought replacement is something you have to keep up, every day. Sometimes we forget, but as soon as you remember and notice those bad thoughts swirling around, take them out and place better things in their place.

Reminding yourself of how unique and good you are every single day because you are. Remind yourself that you are beautiful and you deserve love. It doesn’t matter what anyone else says about you. You deserve it and you are worth it. You have the power to change your thoughts and attitude. And that’s really all I wanted to say today. Sending lots of love with this post. ❤

Blessed Be )O(