Emotional level: 7
Mental level: 8
TODAY I LEARNED: Nutella was invented during WWII, when an Italian pastry maker mixed hazelnuts into chocolate to extend his chocolate ration.
I’m not going to lie to anyone and say that living with depression is easy. The hard part about it is that you can’t always tell if I’m depressed by looking at me. That’s the case with most people who suffer from depression. You must tap into the inner parts of the person to really figure out what they’re feeling. To do that, you have to get to know them, and that’s not always easy for someone with depression.
All my life I’ve had a hard time socializing. It may not show on the outside, but sometimes my social anxiety really tears me apart on the inside. It’s not something you can stop immediately, otherwise I would have a better handle on the situation. It’s really just something you have to talk yourself through. Sometimes I think about what I wouldn’t give to just be “normal” and be able to socialize like a normal person. However, if that were the case, I wouldn’t have the experience I do today, and I certainly wouldn’t give that away just to feel like a “normal person.”
It’s possible to be who you want to be though, even if you have things that seem to hold you back. Reaching out to someone is usually the first step. Finding someone who knows plenty about the issues you’re going through can be a great starting point.
Then you have to find a daily solution that works for you and stick with it. I find that the hardest part about the entire process is sticking with it. It’s hard to imagine that something is going to be with you your entire life. And sure, we are human, we’re going to fail, but we’re also going to get back up.
Blessed Be )O(