Emotional level: 5
Mental level: 7
TODAY I LEARNED: Supposedly, yawning cools your brain.
Today I really went through a lot emotionally. Normally I go into detail about what it is that’s bothering me but for now I will say it’s simply something I have to work through. I take it day by day and try my best because that’s all I can do sometimes. Other days…like today, everything you do to try and bring positivity into your life seems to be done in vain.
That’s just part of depression. Drudging through the constant flow…but it’s important to be honest with one’s self about. Locking the depression away and pretending to be happy only hurts yourself and makes things worse. That’s why I try my best to write about it and get it out there. Not only does it help me, but it seems to help others to hear about someone else’s pain and issues and to know they’re not alone in what they’re feeling.
People don’t like to hear about depression, sadness, grief, and so on because they’re all things that most people find unappealing and unpleasant. Personally, I’ve been through so many “unpleasant” emotions that they’re not something I run from and haven’t for a very long time. I confront them head on.
Sometimes it takes a few days to get through the motions of depression…and sometimes it takes a month or two, or even longer, but eventually I work through it and come to a more stable mindset. I promise myself I will make it through and sometimes that’s the only thing I have to hold onto…a reassurance that I will make it to tomorrow.
I’m not going to apologize for this post being depressing because honestly…it’s the truth and the truth should be told. Also, I shouldn’t have to apologize for who I am or what I feel. I’m not a person who likes to wear masks. I try my best to be nice every day, but I don’t like being someone I’m not. That’s just not how I work.
I know I’m not alone, though. Plenty of other people today are feeling like I am. Some of them are feeling it worse and some are feeling it all quite less, but I’m not alone in my depression. I know things will be okay…that it will just take time.
That’s what we all need to remember. If you are indeed feeling down, depressed, or any of those mucky emotions that just bring you down entirely, remember that they will fade. Yes, they’re going to come back, but they will fade once more. Again and again. Life is a cycle…a circle. So, just keep moving forward. It will get better. It has to.
Blessed Be )O(