Oddly Me

Emotional level: 6

Mental level: 6

TODAY I LEARNED: You can see better when you’re scared.

This past week…has been a shit storm of events. I have experienced the fear of losing one of my best friends, (he’s okay), the daily anxiety I struggle with, and of course crippling depression. Quite a few other things…but I won’t bore with the details.

Through it all, I seem to have forgotten what I promised myself so many years ago when I graduated high school, which was…

“Above all else, be sure to have fun.”

I feel that’s what I’ve been lacking in my life is “fun.”

I’ve been moving through the motions of my day to day life and trying to figure out what I’m missing. Why won’t that passion for the things I love come back? Why does my motivation seem to be lacking? It’s because I’ve been neglecting something very important…fun!

We can’t truly live our lives and be happy without some fun. I’ve been treating my life as a thing I have to do without any fun instead of what it is. Life is life. Sometimes I get so caught up in the specifics I forget that it’s not always serious. Depression will do that to you.

Having fun is a part of what makes us who we are as humans. We’re taught to dumb down the urge to play when really this should be encouraged. Sure we want a world where work is work, and everyone will do what they’re told, but what happened to play?

Fun times with friends, family or just by yourself, doing what you enjoy. Sometimes we just forget to have fun. That’s okay, especially when we have little reminders and people to enrich us with the joys of life.

Yeah, that sounds stereotypical, but it’s true.

Basically, I’m going to have more fun…because that’s been lacking in my life and I’m ready for more of that. Most importantly, I’m going to be considering myself first.

Blessed Be )O(