Emotional level: 7

Mental level: 7

TODAY I LEARNED: 50 tons of trash is expected after the Times Square New Year’s Eve Bash.  It typically takes 12-16 hours to clean up after the event.

So, the moon is moving into Aries, which means our impulsive natures will be on the rise. Watch for that.

I want to talk about my favorite memory from Christmas. Not the day, but when my family and I decided to celebrate it.

I love that we all talked to each other and bonded. It feels like it’s been awhile since we’ve been able to do that because so much has changed in each of our lives.

I don’t like change. It’s hard for me. Really, I guess I should say that change is something I have a hard time with when it comes to big life decisions. I usually don’t mind change with small things, or parts of life that don’t necessarily have an enormous impact. But with major life events, it’s difficult.

I think any of us have some issues with change and that’s understandable. I definitely get it.

You wake up one day and suddenly your parents have rearranged the house. That’s not so tough. You wake up the next day and you find yourself suffering from an anxiety disorder. That’s rough.

Any type of major decision or event that leads to a huge alteration of your usual routine will throw you off. So, what the hell do you do?

You have to re-adapt.

Yes, it’s hard and I know it’s a bitch, but that’s just a part of life. Another thing that we need to accept in order to feel more balanced and in check with ourselves and the universe. Because whether we see it or not, this giant change will serve us in some way.

Sometimes the change is painful…sometimes we lose a loved one or people leave us of their own will. Most of the time we see why, other times we never really get an answer.

These past five years have been big “change” years for me. I’ve been kicked over side ways and under and I thought I wouldn’t make it through…but I did.

I made it through. I pushed through hell and back and it’s paid off. I can’t say I would ever take anything back either. I know, that sounds crazy. Why wouldn’t I want to go back and make sure my life was stars and rainbows? Because I know it was all meant to be. The path I’ve walked has been full of equally amazing things. I can’t discount the parts that have made me smile when I thought I would never smile again.

So, I say to change…

I accept you. I accept that you create and evolve things in my life.

Also, sometimes you suck, but that’s okay.

I hope everyone has a good day today. Change can be scary…but it’s worth it to keep moving with it and evolving. Change is a flow, so go with the flow. I don’t mean just groove right along, but find your flow and stick with it. Move to your own current because it’s the only one you have. Move with love.

Blessed Be )O(