Emotional level: 7

Mental level: 6

TODAY I LEARNED: 350 million people, of all ages, around the world, suffer from depression.

I wish I could go swimming in the ocean right now. Just now, as I let out a breath, I tasted a slight hint of the saltwater from the sea. I don’t know how or why, but it was wonderful.

Kind of the like the ocean reminding me that I need to get back to it.

I need that. The cool ocean water over my skin. The warm bright sun shining all over my body. I need it. I need it.

I miss the sun in general. I’ve been working nights for so long, sometimes I forget what it feels like. I know that sounds dramatic, but it’s true. I need more sun. I need more time in nature, even during these cold winter days.

But I’ll have more of that very soon.

A part of me can’t wait for summer but on the other hand, I don’t want winter to leave because I love the cold and snow just as much as the sun and warm days.

With all that being said, I was meditating yesterday and I had the strangest calm come over me. Of course, when you’re meditating, calm is a given, but there was something different about it. It was similar to the way I feel when I’m at the beach. All these positive affirmations and light thoughts are really paying off.

Of course, sleep helps so much. If I ever feel groggy, most of the time it’s because I haven’t been getting enough sleep.

It’s a funny cycle. After work, it seems like the first thing you want to do is go to bed, but once you get home, 9/10 your body is like

“Nah, we’re not doing that”

You chill out, possibly forget about the million other things you were supposed to do and then, finally go to bed and wake up to do it all over again.

It may seem like a rut. I try my best to make it a point to never fall into a rut. It’s happened a few times and it doesn’t take me long to correct it. Ruts are terrifying. They sneak up on you before you even realize they’re there.

I try to freshen things up when it comes to daily life. Even the smallest change can really make a difference. Like which food you take to work or what you have for breakfast. Where’s the soul in eating, sleeping, and doing everything the same way every damn day? You start to feel gray, and not in a good way. It’s a dark kind of gray that leaves you in a funk wondering what the hell happened.

So, just spice things up, little by little. There’s no harm. I know that yesterday I talked about change being scary and this kind of plays into that. It can be hard to change your routine, especially if you don’t see it as a rut, but it’s good to get out of our comfort zones.

Believe me, I’m a big fan of my comfort zone, but it’s good to burst that bubble occasionally.

Go out there and change things! Be kind to yourself along the way. Mind your inner voice and go in love. 😊

Blessed Be )O(